i'm disapointed i'm feeling

tired and grumpy and all i see

is everyone's smile and them laughing 

and chatting and all i do is just

sit and i was quiet 



i use to be 

a girl who liked being a  little by herself

and now i some reason love to be with a crowd

and today i felt so bad  felt a feeling so dark 

got mixed up in emotions



when the family talked to me 

i didn't know how to react cause

of what i was feeling inside

felt i was fading a bit

felt as if i was going to cry 



family make me feel cunferdale

and i make them feel a little different

everytime i am there to see them

i'm always changing and i'm always in a mood

they don't know about or understand



i'm disapointed cause i couldn't cope with people being happy around me all i could do was feel sad and mad and felt a little confused i was feeling like the wall fell on my head and i was  dead and at the time i couldn't  bearly stand being  in a room full i was so confused and unsure i didn't know how to react

i felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out



the girl i use to be was so quiet

i use to love laughing for the soul

and now all i am is feeling bad

angry tired mad and disapointed



all i want is me to just grow up

and take no stress in my life

i'm so disapointed in myself today

i felt as if the wall had knocked me down

and i was a completly different person

i am so confused i was about to cry

i was so disapointed

and now i bearly can stand myself 



the girl i used to be was so quiet

so true to herself of what she wanted to be

as she grown up..love family love friends just a  little too much all at once happing

and i couldn't stand being in a room so full 

felt as if i'd beening pushed to the limit i can't stand

felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out



it all started friday 24th of december

and all i am feeling is disapointed

its completly made me feel disapointed 

how can i be this way at such a wonderful timeof year.